I've written on the topic of friends many times, but I don't think it's ever something I'm going to move away from.
Different people have different views of what friends should be like. Really, we give our friends a lot of jobs to do, and they (usually) expect the same from us. And when you find a friendship that truly makes you light up, you want to give everything to that cause to keep it going - to keep that light in flame.
My main problem is coming across as clingy (it may not be my main problem, actually, but for argument's sake, let's say it is). I sometimes get 'addicted' to certain friends and can't seem to get enough of them. Like I'm kind of addicted to eating Nando's right now... Spending time with these friends is like a salve for my heart, a boost for my dreams, and a pillow to rest on - all at the same time. I like to think that I'm like that to other people, too.
But when you miss someone, it's so difficult to move through that feeling. When I miss someone, I just want to see them as soon as I can, and then give them many cuddles, or get straight into the 'deep and meaningful' chats. And that's difficult. Because, well, life goes on. My friends are often busy with their own lives, and usually I'm either too sick or too busy to commit to any big things.
So I go on missing them. And that's okay - it shows that I still care about them. But I'm still learning how to deal with it and recognise it as HEALTHY, rather than needy.
Love to those who read <3