Happy humpday, guys ^_^
Today was ...grounding. Like my wings have officially been clipped and I needed to deal with that.
I had the most awful pain in my abdomen today, and it was really frightening. My Gentleman was having to look after me for most of the morning because I really needed him to (I'm just realising now that this is okay.) I basically got up, dealt with the pain (well, tried), and then Xin put me back to bed where I slept for four hours while he read, dealt with emails and surfed the net, etc, at his desk. I didn't even realise.. which was a testament to just how much my body needed that rest. I'm not sure I understand WHY it needed that much rest, but it's still asking for it.
For awhile, my stomach seemed to feel better if I moved, but the rest of my body was screaming REST, so that was hard.
My thoughts today have been directed a lot more toward my warm fuzzies, and how I can attain them. I feel I really need some recharging, but I don't know how to get it. Especially with the weather being the way it is right now. I can't escape feeling hot and flustered sometimes. I want to sleep in my own bed tonight, but my room is ridiculously warm and stuffy.
Anyway, I'm rambling. Warm fuzzies. I've started my list. And I've started drinking peppermint tea again and reading pretty magazines. I even bought myself one today with my limited monies, but I feel good about it. I'm trying to look after myself, but sometimes you just realise how hard that really is, you know? How do you properly relax? How do you take your mind off of the thing that is getting you to relax in the first place?
I need to rest. What does that mean for me?
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